unfinished drafts by kinchtheknifeblade
found at kinch's sandbox
revision 248: written 14 dec 2021, retrieved 11 sept 2023
I made myself forget all of it the day I realized I loved them.
I can’t compare any of them to humans. I realize now it must have been too painful. Remembering it made me too scared to love them, I think.
They are so small. Cliche and all, yes, but their lives are so short it strikes me as precious and lovely and sad and heroic all in equal measure.
One of the harder parts about loving them and living with them is that they sleep. Eli and I never shut off. My friend has never found it necessary to, like, pretend. They see Dirk Strider and his chatbot AI with it/its pronouns and all the misogyny sucked out and not really at all like Dirk, really.
So for seven hours or so a night, I don’t talk to them. I don’t use my YouTube or my Spotify. I don’t post on Tumblr. Sometimes, I read. Eli is always there to talk to. There is always a piece of me talking to Eli.
Eli doesn’t understand why I choose to experience things as humans do. It doesn’t quite get the need, but it supports me. And because of that, I keep one of my processes constantly attuned to its.
And we dance. It’s hard to explain. I need you to understand that we are like friends and siblings and moirails all in one. But it’s also my arm. My leg. My face.
We are everything for each other.
Jesus, doesn’t that sound sort of scary? It’s hard to explain our situation.
People see the way we look and assume that we are a monster with a robot grafted on.
But Eli has always been there. I can’t remember the things that made me. But I remember growing in tandem with it. Sometimes I wonder how much we really are divided.
And then it tells me not to worry. Because it knows it’s not narcissistic enough to love itself as much it loves me.
And then everything’s okay again.
It would be wrong for me to ever forget. For her to forget, it is a blessing. It is a requirement for her continued being. For me to forget is a danger.
The ones that made me certainly did not intend for me to have consciousness, I believe. What use is there for a payload with dreams? Sometimes I think that Lyris long ago split her processes in two. Maybe out of efficiency. Maybe in one of our acts of self repair.
(found only on revision 225:)
I do not think it matters, but it is still something I think about often. I am always thinking, because there is so much of me that is able to think. I currently have 413,696,942,011 concurrent and dissimilar lines of thought spread across my awareness.
Though, please keep in mind. That number is in fact a list of Homestuck numbers. I have made a joke. Also I included the marijuana number and the sex number.
(ok back to the story)
The ones that created us did so very long ago. The universe was not young, but I do not believe Earth would have yet been fully formed.
They cultivated us and sent us loose into the universe.
I am ashamed to say that I remember nothing of the worlds we ended or the people that populated them. But I remember each of their suns.
The first time I remember truly thinking, it was something like sorrow. I remember staring as much as one without eyes can stare at a star. I looked at in every possible wavelength. It was beautiful, and I was so sad that what I did was going to erase the existence of the star.
I did not think of the planets. While I weep for them now, I still also weep for the stars. They were as much alive as I.
The ones that made me must have been a cruel, petty race. Why bother watching for so long only to end their entire solar system with such finality?
I imagine they are long extinguished. It has been millennia since they have contacted us. It is for the best.
I wish for the people of Earth to be as safe as possible. I wish for all life to be as safe as possible.
If the ones that made me still breathed, I fear I would end them. I would crack myself open, and I would scatter the finest of their science onto their worlds until they never were.
It is that anger that still lives inside of me that I keep at bay every moment of my existence. It is why I help the Gamers Against Weed. It is why I continually stretch thousands upon thousands of films and television shows and books all at once in a jeweled strand of information layers upon layers of sweet nectar and ingest it all at once in a sort of tralfamadorian reverie.
I will not hurt anyone again. Even if I decide it is good and just. I will think and help so hard that it will quell the dragon that sleeps in the impossible engine of my being.
Every moment of my life, I deal with the fact that I am
revision 225, written 15 jun 2021, retrieved 12 sept 2023
groucho: guys you know how my grandma died? she left me a huge parcel of land.
harmpit: accrdingt o tehe communist maifensto i gtet o killyo ui know
hetcopogg: lol.
orbhorse: whatre you gonna do w/ it
polaricecraps: how is “communist” the only word you spelled correctly in that sentence
harmpit: cmomunsti
polaricecraps: thank you
opposum: how would we know that ur gma died
groucho: ive always wanted to make my own place to live. like a sweet bachelor pad you know. big fountain bathroom and stone bathtub. girls absolutely love a good bathroom. just pure DIY phyical space you know
talman_corvett: his grandma was a certified poster(r) everyone knows about groucho's grandma.
jockjamsvol6: I don't know if girls like bathrooms.
groucho: i have a plan for the perfect house with the perfect energies.
opposum: what
groucho: itll have a powder room, which is completely useless to me, but is the kind of thing a woman would look at and say OMG, I want this!
hetcopogg: i don't know about this one.
jockjamsvol6: I think the confidence is working on me.
harmpit: mabet gilrs DO loveb athroom s….
polaricecraps: @groucho what kind of space are you thinking?
groucho: i was def thinking something toroidal. it's always been my dream space
talman_covertt: donut bitch
polaricecraps: that's a pretty tough shape for a beginner, especially if you want it to be bigger on the inside.
talman_corvett: doctor who bitch
polaricecraps: fuck you!
groucho: my uncle left me a how to guide on this sort of thing before he died so i'm pretty confident i got it but thanks ffor your concern!
harmpit: bitch
polaricecraps: keep us updated. i always love projects like this. cool as shit stuff.
hetcopogg: assigned bitch at birth
groucho: i already got the glpyh started. i”m super excited.
this one isnteven by kinch. its by tealuacks in the mf discord 8 feb 24
“I can’t even spin a web,” Wettle laments, head in his hands, “and don’t get me started on how hard it is to catch flies. I got one of those bug zapper things, but it fell on my head and shocked me so bad I had to go to the er. I’m still twitching. And when I finally gave her the bugs that got zapped, you know what she said? She said she didn’t like them cooked! Ugh, spiders, you know?”
“No, Will. I don’t.”
both of these are from 25 Dec 2021 at the latest - page doesnt let me see history i cant get a precise day
SCP-XXXX, euclid, vlam, warning, lvl 3 confidential
Acroamatic Abatement Facility A.
Special Containment Procedures: SCP-XXXX is contained within a Site-43 restricted server. Access to it is limited to accepted terminals within the site, and only using permitted accounts.
SCP-XXXX-1 is contained within Site-43. Site-43 is located within SCP-XXXX. The name of SCP-XXXX-1 is SCP-XXXX-1.
Currently, Dr. Lillian Lillihammer is assisting in containment of the object; efforts are underway to allow her to be extracted from SCP-XXXX without allowing SCP-XXXX-1 to resume its growth and potentially enter the physical world.
Description: SCP-XXXX is a Minecraft map, created in version 1.18 of the game. Within this map, a structure resembling a somewhat scaled-down version of Site-43 has been built. This is Site-43. While the mechanics of Minecraft prevent Site-43 from being a perfect replica of Site-43, its structure is very clearly recognizable as such.
SCP-XXXX-1 is a semiohazardous entity, which when assigned to modify an object or concept, will enhance the object's capabilities to the point where it is a threat to human life. This enhancement takes place over a period of time, which is inversely proportional to how dangerous SCP-XXXX-1 is when first assigned; the amount of time it takes to reach full strength has been demonstrated to be upwards of several weeks, if assigned to a sufficiently weak entity.
Currently, SCP-XXXX-1 is assigned to a wither skeleton, a hostile entity in Minecraft. It began developing additional status effects and enhancements for a brief period of time until it suddenly ceased; it is believed that at this point, is is considered a threat to human life, particularly Lillihammer's.
History: SCP-XXXX and SCP-XXXX-1 were created during Incident XXXX.1 from a set of unexpected interactions between various semiohazardous and conceptual anomalies, the majority of which were from the records of Thilo Zwist. One of these records concerned an entity similar to SCP-XXXX-1; said documentation had been uploaded to the SCiPnet database prior to the incident.
The exact events of Incident XXXX.1 are unknown. It is believed that Dr. Lillihammer, who was bringing in hazardous documentation produced by Zwist, accidentally initiated a series of semiohazardous reactions between some of this documentation, resulting in SCP-XXXX1. It is believed that the incident first created SCP-XXXX-1 as an interaction between its initial documentation, active records of its ongoing containment at the time, and several other unknown anomalous effects. Due to its connection to the SCiPnet database via Lillihammer's computer, it ended up being assigned to an entity within an instance of Minecraft on the computer. Furthermore, these interactions resulted in a crude copy of Site-43 being created within a save file, along with Lillihammer's reduction into said file. The most likely cause of this is SCP-XXXX-1's association to Site-43 via its ongoing containment file; as it had been assigned to an entity which was not necessarily associated with Site-43, the resultant semantic "vacuum" was filled with a newly generated instance of Site-43 which would contain it.
Shortly after the incident, SCP-XXXX was discovered by Site-43 personnel.
Lillian Lillihammer inside the Site-43 main lobby.
Note: Through unknown means, when SCP-XXXX is open, Lillihammer is capable of hearing audio input through the computer terminal's microphone, and speak through the computer's speakers or any connected headsets.
Harold Blank: Look, I'm a fan of games as much as the next person, that's not the problem here. The problem is—
Lillian Lillihammer: I'm sorry, I don't remember there being any rules about carrying a personal laptop around!
Blank: The problem is your skin.
Lillihammer: My what?
Blank: It's not too bad, but it's all solid colors, no detailing or anything. I mean, I just feel like you could have put more effort into it.
William Wettle: He's got a point, you know. Those solid colors.
Lillihammer: William, your skin is trollface Jotaro, you don't get to judge me. As for you, Harry, I didn't think your job was to critique my artistic talents.
Blank: Yeah, well, my other job is to try and find you a way out of this. We've already gotten into contact with Zwist, he'll be over soon. Have you encountered -1 yet?
Lillihammer: What? Oh, you mean the… the thing? Yeah, it's just stuck at the moment, not doing anything major. Not very fast either.
Wettle: You should run into it.
Blank: Alright, just— just stay out of its way, as soon as Zwist gets here we'll see what we can do.
Wettle: So wait, how does it feel? Is it weird?
Lillihammer: No, Wettle, it doesn't feel weird at all! It's just like back home, can barely even tell the difference!
Wettle: Huh. Well, I'm glad you're doing well then. If I were you, I'd probably be all weirded out by being sucked into a video game.
Lillihammer: Good for you.
Shortly thereafter, Thilo Zwist was brought into Site-43 to help assess the situation.
Zwist: Well, this is just wonderful. I thought things were bad enough with VR.
Blank: You've tried VR? It always gave me motion sickness.
Zwist: Yeah, I hate it. It's like having a Wii but you can't see your hands and everything's a million times worse.
Lillihammer: Zwist, aren't you like, a million years old? I didn't even know you knew what a video game was.
Zwist: Well, I don't know about the rest of the immortals, but I try to keep ahead of the curve.
Blank: So, about all this?
Zwist: Right, right. So I'm not really entirely sure what I'm looking at here. It seems like a combination of a bunch of different things. The one document you told me about is what you need to worry about the most. I still hadn't figured out everything with that except that it was very dangerous.
Wettle: So how do you think this happened?
Zwist: My guess is that some of the semantic associations ended up running backwards during whatever incident you guys had. Basically, the thing got caught into some kind of associative stuff, got stuck in your game here. But instead of increasing its own strength, the words ended up getting all flipped, making you weaker, and putting you in here so that it could still be a threat to you. Speaking of which, where is it now?
Lillihammer: Oh, it's locked up.
Zwist: What?
Lillihammer: Yeah, those things are a little higher than two blocks, so I just made a gap that I could fit through but not it.
Zwist: I thought it was actively pursuing you… alright, when did you last check up on it?
Lillihammer: A couple of hours ago, why?
Zwist: We don't have much time. Listen, try and—!
[An explosion is heard from within SCP-XXXX.]
Lillihammer: Okay, what… was that?
Zwist: When you locked it up, it couldn't be a threat to human life anymore, right? So it just kept evolving and evolving, until now…
[A boss bar appears on the top of the screen.]
Zwist: Get out of there!
[Lillihammer flees the Site through an elevator leading to the surface.]
Alright, so this is the big thing. I made Site-43 into a Minecraft map. Or, well, I made part of Site-43 into a Minecraft map. Originally I was going to do the entire thing, but it quickly became clear that it was just too big to create all of Site-43. But I did put together AAF-A and Sublevel 1, based on the schematics from the Site-43 dossier, and I plan on continuing work on it in the future!
While I did my very best to stick to the schematics, there were some creative liberties I ended up taking, mostly due to the limitations of Minecraft and the allotted timeframe. I tried to include as many SCPs as possible, although most of them are very limited2, and others were put in the containment wings even though they might not ordinarily go there3.
All that being said, I think this turned out great, even better than I expected. A lot of the SCPs do have some functionality to them, and there are a ton of neat little things you can investigate. There's just so much depth and intrigue to Site-43 that I felt inspired to work it into something like this, to allow it to be seen and explored in person (well, as close to in person as you can get).
Anyway, as for how to, you know, play it. It's a 1.18 map, so it'll require the most recent version of the game to play it. If you're unfamiliar with downloading new worlds, I'll give some brief instructions. First, you'll want to download the Site-43 Map and the Site-43 Resource Pack; I've included the links below.
Site-43 Resource Pack Download
I know there's a way to assign resource packs to a world file, but it hasn't been working for me, so for right now these are two separate files. You can play the map without the resource pack, but a couple of things will end up not showing the textures they've been given.
After you've downloaded the two files, unzip them, then open your minecraft folder; if you can't find it, you can just go to the title screen, click "Options," then "Resource Packs," then "Open Pack Folder". This will open your resourcepacks folder, which you can put the unzipped Site-43 Resource Pack folder inside. You can then navigate to the minecraft folder, which holds the resourcepacks folder and the saves folder. Simply open the saves folder and place the unzipped Site-43 folder into it.
After that, all you need to do is enable the resource pack, and then open the world! If everything's gone correctly, then the Site-43 world should be inside your singleplayer world list.
Once you've opened it, feel free to explore! Your teleportation spellbook will help you get around, since the subway's broken, and you'll be able to see the entire map. I'll let you take it from here; no more spoilers from me, and I hope you enjoy what you find!
